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Redundancy

Department of Redundancy Department

First the sign to the right of the door replaced a paper sign letting people in my office building know where to find the stairs. Apparently this wasn’t enough, because a new sign appeared ON the door.

This is bothersome squared for me. Not only is it completely redundant, but there’s a different word on each sign! In different fonts, no less. I am a firm believer in effective communication, but you’ve also got to believe that your reader has some independent brain power.

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My Book of Books

When I was accepted to college I received a list of 20 books and 20 movies to watch before showing up in the fall. The idea was to read/watch these 40 items over the summer. I did pretty well. I think I got through 18 of the books and 14 of the movies. Some of the movies were older, and I went to college in (gasp) 1995, so there was no Netflix, etc., to find unusual titles.

Before classes began there was a meet-and-greet with the Dean. The first thing he said was: “Please get out paper and pencil. There will be a quiz on your summer assignments.” I shared a silent, panicked stare with several of my new classmates, but we dutifully got out pencil and paper. At that point there was laughter from the staff and it was revealed there would be no quiz. The joke was on us.

I learned a very important lesson that day. Logically, I should have learned the importance of preparation. Nope, I learned that what you read and what you see feeds directly into what you create. In the next couple weeks it was obvious who had read the books and seen the movies assigned. Although we weren’t tested, those books and films had been chosen for their “classic” importance. Many of the themes in those works are found throughout our culture and having  that base of knowledge was a good foundation for many things – regardless of the subject.

To keep a record I started what I call my Book of Books. This is a basic blank, lined journal where I write simply the title and author of any book I read. I don’t review it or add any other information. Because it is simple I’ve kept it up for 15 years. My Book of Books holds over 700 entries now and I can look back through the different periods in my reading life: my vampire phase, my über literary phase, and lately my how to raise children phase.

I realize now that all those words are swirling somewhere in my head and are in great part responsible for why I have such a wealth of ideas now. I need to remember that as important as it is for me to write, to create, it’s still necessary to add to the well by reading.

Of course, this may all just be a clever ploy by my subconscious to procrastinate since I am SO TIRED of writing my current story. I want very much to work on one of the shiny new ideas that came to my mind in the last couple months.

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Perfectionism?

“You’re such a perfectionist,” said a co-worker of mine in a not-so-nice tone.

I laughed. “I’m much too imperfect to be a perfectionist.”

“That’s the definition of a perfectionist,” she said. (Did I mention she also said I was an A-type personality? Humph.)

Um, what??!! So because I’m a perfectionist I had to look it up. Here’s a few definitions:

  • A disposition to feel that anything less than perfect is unacceptable.
  • A person who is displeased by anything that does not meet very high standards.
  • A tendency to expect perfection in everything one does, with little tolerance for mistakes.

Hmm. I guess that does fit me, though I never considered it before. I’d heard this excuse from other people – and I do consider it an excuse. “I’m a perfectionist so I never finish anything.” Completing tasks is not a problem for me. I turn things in on time, in the right format, and I never ask for extensions. I was like that in school and I’m like that in the workplace. The problem is I’m like that with myself. And if I’m honest, that means I often fail myself. And feel bad about it.

What does this have to do with writing? Writing (at least for me) is much more about re-writing, editing, whatever you want to call it. The first draft usually is junk. That means expecting perfection makes writing that first draft TORTURE.

That got me thinking that perfectionists miss a lot of the fun of the experience. If I’m worried about failing, then I’m not enjoying the process. I’ve said many times before that I love having written, but don’t enjoy writing. I’ve always taken that as a given, an unchangeable part of my personality. What if I approach the writing to enjoy those moments, and not worry so much about the end product? That is counter to everything I usually do, which means it has to be a conscious decision.

I decided a long time ago that happiness is a conscious decision. And you know what? I’m happier because of it. Not all the time, of course, but when I can remember. I need to bring the same mind over matter, or mind over mind, mentality to my writing. So tonight I’m going to write, and I’m going to enjoy it – even if I don’t like what I’ve written.

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