Redundancy

Department of Redundancy Department

First the sign to the right of the door replaced a paper sign letting people in my office building know where to find the stairs. Apparently this wasn’t enough, because a new sign appeared ON the door.

This is bothersome squared for me. Not only is it completely redundant, but there’s a different word on each sign! In different fonts, no less. I am a firm believer in effective communication, but you’ve also got to believe that your reader has some independent brain power.

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My Book of Books

When I was accepted to college I received a list of 20 books and 20 movies to watch before showing up in the fall. The idea was to read/watch these 40 items over the summer. I did pretty well. I think I got through 18 of the books and 14 of the movies. Some of the movies were older, and I went to college in (gasp) 1995, so there was no Netflix, etc., to find unusual titles.

Before classes began there was a meet-and-greet with the Dean. The first thing he said was: “Please get out paper and pencil. There will be a quiz on your summer assignments.” I shared a silent, panicked stare with several of my new classmates, but we dutifully got out pencil and paper. At that point there was laughter from the staff and it was revealed there would be no quiz. The joke was on us.

I learned a very important lesson that day. Logically, I should have learned the importance of preparation. Nope, I learned that what you read and what you see feeds directly into what you create. In the next couple weeks it was obvious who had read the books and seen the movies assigned. Although we weren’t tested, those books and films had been chosen for their “classic” importance. Many of the themes in those works are found throughout our culture and having  that base of knowledge was a good foundation for many things – regardless of the subject.

To keep a record I started what I call my Book of Books. This is a basic blank, lined journal where I write simply the title and author of any book I read. I don’t review it or add any other information. Because it is simple I’ve kept it up for 15 years. My Book of Books holds over 700 entries now and I can look back through the different periods in my reading life: my vampire phase, my über literary phase, and lately my how to raise children phase.

I realize now that all those words are swirling somewhere in my head and are in great part responsible for why I have such a wealth of ideas now. I need to remember that as important as it is for me to write, to create, it’s still necessary to add to the well by reading.

Of course, this may all just be a clever ploy by my subconscious to procrastinate since I am SO TIRED of writing my current story. I want very much to work on one of the shiny new ideas that came to my mind in the last couple months.

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Perfectionism?

“You’re such a perfectionist,” said a co-worker of mine in a not-so-nice tone.

I laughed. “I’m much too imperfect to be a perfectionist.”

“That’s the definition of a perfectionist,” she said. (Did I mention she also said I was an A-type personality? Humph.)

Um, what??!! So because I’m a perfectionist I had to look it up. Here’s a few definitions:

  • A disposition to feel that anything less than perfect is unacceptable.
  • A person who is displeased by anything that does not meet very high standards.
  • A tendency to expect perfection in everything one does, with little tolerance for mistakes.

Hmm. I guess that does fit me, though I never considered it before. I’d heard this excuse from other people – and I do consider it an excuse. “I’m a perfectionist so I never finish anything.” Completing tasks is not a problem for me. I turn things in on time, in the right format, and I never ask for extensions. I was like that in school and I’m like that in the workplace. The problem is I’m like that with myself. And if I’m honest, that means I often fail myself. And feel bad about it.

What does this have to do with writing? Writing (at least for me) is much more about re-writing, editing, whatever you want to call it. The first draft usually is junk. That means expecting perfection makes writing that first draft TORTURE.

That got me thinking that perfectionists miss a lot of the fun of the experience. If I’m worried about failing, then I’m not enjoying the process. I’ve said many times before that I love having written, but don’t enjoy writing. I’ve always taken that as a given, an unchangeable part of my personality. What if I approach the writing to enjoy those moments, and not worry so much about the end product? That is counter to everything I usually do, which means it has to be a conscious decision.

I decided a long time ago that happiness is a conscious decision. And you know what? I’m happier because of it. Not all the time, of course, but when I can remember. I need to bring the same mind over matter, or mind over mind, mentality to my writing. So tonight I’m going to write, and I’m going to enjoy it – even if I don’t like what I’ve written.

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Writing Season

My household is under attack. Flu season has not gone well for us, and I would be lying to say it has not affected my writing. Well, the fevers are gone and though my voice is still hoarse this is not Hour a Day Talker, and I need to get back to writing.

So now I’m preparing for Writing Season. By that I mean I am focusing my mental efforts not just on getting that hour of writing done each day, but feeling excited about it.

One interesting byproduct of constant creative focus = more ideas. When I was younger I never had any good ideas. I wanted to write, but what about? Now, I have way more ideas than I could ever write in a lifetime. I have notebooks full of ideas. In order to bring back some of my motivation for Writing Season I am going to allow myself to work on other projects. I’ve been focusing on one thing hoping to finish it. Well, I’m sick of it. Instead of just stopping I need to move on to something else.

Here’s wishing you lots of quality ideas this writing season!

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Day 1

I wrote for an hour today! That’s a refrain I hope to be able to repeat the next 364 days this year. I’ve read it takes 21 days to form a habit. I don’t know about that, but I know how long it takes to break a habit. One moment, one thought, one long, hard day that forces you to just forget. That’s all it takes to fall off the wagon.

As I write I hate the words. I think they are horrible and I’m wasting my time. Something magical happens when I’m not looking, though. When I re-read something from a couple of weeks ago I like it, even sometimes love it. So I need this regimen to force myself through the “I hate it” phase. My overall goal is to know I have tried, that I gave all these dumb stories in my head a chance to live in the fresh air. And maybe I’ll unclutter my brain in the process.

Tomorrow is my birthday. And guess what? I’m going to write.

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Write 1 Hour Every Day for 1 Year

60 minutes a day. On paper it doesn’t look like much, just 1/24 of my day. I spend more than that getting to work and back, getting the kids to bed, or learning how to start a $%*#! blog. In reality, one hour seems as elusive as a lemonade stand in a snow storm. In other words, even if I find an hour, do I want to spend it writing? My time is like the audition list for a cheesy reality show – the flashier, frivolous items tend to get picked first.

The truth is that I much prefer having written to writing. The unfortunate answer to this is TO WRITE. I have been working on several projects in fits and starts for years. Occasionally I finish something, but I lose focus quickly and don’t hone and perfect it.

That’s why I’m committing to writing 1 hour every day for the entire year of 2011. Journals, blogs, and notes don’t count toward the total. Staring at the screen while thinking of my next line does count. On my birthday I will write. On Thanksgiving I will write. I will write when I’m sick. I will write when I’m discouraged. I will write on vacation, on business trips, and when my computer isn’t working.

What am I writing? It doesn’t really matter. I’m doing this to create a habit. I’ll talk about my projects over the course of the year.

15 days until blastoff!

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